I'd simply be just thinking,
wondering about many things.
Figuring on how to overcome,
my pain and sorrow.
Thank God for words,
words express silent thought.
I think of fun and joy,
when can I play again.
I'm playing right at this moment,
doing something I like.

I have a thought so silent,
I dare not write it in words.
I dare myself to do so,
it goes something like this.

I'm tired of living,
but afraid to die.
I'm run down and wore out,
from dealing with a crazy world.
Yet I laugh and smile,
enjoy myself as much as possible.

I can't be captured in death,
so I strive to live in life.
I know very well of my negativity,
it haunts me like a ghost.
It is my shadow,
each and everyday.
I race to stay ahead of what haunts,
it races to front me.

Kowing of my weakness,
increases my strength.
I know I have to fight for joy,
or evil will destroy.
It has been chasing me all my life,
I could easy be a miserable person,
But I'm not,

knowing of the shadow,
keeps me chasing the light.
To me life has never been fair,
nor has it to many others.
I don't feel rained on,
I feel privileged,
it's a great challenge to overcome,
I take it on willingly!

G