Some refuse to give in
and admit to their own
lowdown reckless sin
They constantly try to defend
almost to a dead end
Even after looking death
in the face
and suffering disgrace
they will keep the same
old stupidty in place
untill they disappear without a trace

Truly brave folks face off
with themselves
knowing that they don't have
squeaky clean kitchen shelves
Then they proceed to clean house
knowing they'll miss a mouse
They know the mouse is there
not that they don't care
so they try hard not to share
knowing they have very little
love to spare

Beatened abused and down hearted
surely a large chunk departed
cause basically this is the way
their life started

I son of a deadbeat father
who never did bother
He left all his wealth to a cousin
knowing he had children
that equal almost a dozen
I tried to give dad the benefit
of the doubt
untill the contents of the will
came out
Again I feel all screwed
but my hate will not be renewed

I got my first nourishment from
my mothers titty
left all alone I had to learn to
survive in the great big city
During my childhood I was
treated kind of chitty
but I didn't change my name to Diddy
I fought hard to keep a smile
on my face
and my heart in the right place
so as to suffer less disgrace

At this point I'll simply come clean
I know why at times I get kind of mean
After taking lifes azz beating
it becomes kind of self defeating
However I have no desires
in self deleting
If there's a hell this earth has
prepared me for my entry
I'll stand on hells gates as a sentry
If there's a heaven somewhere around
hopefully at the gate I'll be found
If there's nothing at all then I guess
I'll just feed the worms in the ground

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