Airport Good -Bye

 You asked me at the airport
If I wanted you to wait with me..
You knew I had a long wait..
and I thought to myself ..
Yes!! Yes!!
but I said no..
Knowing your guilt needed to go..
back home to your family
where you belonged..
back to where your heart was
to right whatever went wrong..
I took bags from your car...
I quickly walked away..
I didn't want you to see my eyes..
and how you broke my heart that day..
Once inside the airport..
I pushed back my tears..
Again the strong independent one..
As always throughout the years..
I sat to the side
watched the time go by..
Praying, hoping, in my mind..
That you would run in to say good bye..
To tell me it was all a mistake..
that you couldn't let me go..
without one more kiss..
and that although we could
never be together..
my love you would miss..
But it never happened..
I remained alone..
Crying in my heart..
as you drove back home. 
To your life
Where you belong..
Wondering why..
You couldn't say good bye..

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My Greatest Mistake
To hold the unbridled reins.
Of a wild heart untamed
To cry these tears without the pain
To never know you feel the same.

To hold to memories we know not why..
The past cannot be denied..
To ourselves we tell many lies..
To avoid the heart break of good-bye.

Time seems to fly so fast..
Like we are characters in a movie cast..
Wish that our friendship could outlast.
All the baggage from the past.

Ahh if only we could begin again..
I would never let you go my friend..
There would be no past no clocks, no end
If only time we could transcend

I do not want to live with your hate ..
For that I know I am too late..
To fix what is set by fate..
To take away my greatest mistake.. 

Erica