The moment you touched my lips I was hooked
I inhaled you deeply and held on to you tightly
Your poison rushed through my body gripping my entire being
Before I realized what was happening you become more than a want
Soon you were a need that tugged at my mind, soul, and heart
You were a danger to me
You were the one thing in my life that allowed me to be bad
Encouraging my addiction by calming my frayed nerves
Soothing my anxiety with every inhalation
You held me tight in your grasp until I began to feel smothered
The tighter you held me the further you pushed me away
In the beginning your danger excited me
I felt mighty holding you between my fingers
Until the danger I had once craved began to crush me
I had to quit you I had to let you go
No longer would I allow you to control my life, moods, and feelings
Giving you up was not easy until the day I no longer needed you
I exhaled your black smoke and crushed your ashes
I put you out for the last time
No more relapses
I will not collapse in weakness at the very sight of you
My body will not tremble when someone speaks of you
Rage will not encompass me until your blackness has penetrated my body
I am over you, your effect is gone, the craving is gone, the need is gone
I have won the battle and the war
I am me again