I just don't know what to do... (poem) by Ed Matlack on AuthorsDen

I just don't know what to do...
by Ed Matlack → (All Poetry by Ed Matlack)
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I am so SORRY to be whining but I am almost at the end of my rope, as it were...I feel so bad for Rufuz more than myself...ed

No more unemployment Have not heard from extension No money, no rent, no utilities No job, though I have applied…L I may have to give up Rufuz I may have to move into my car Tis the only way I can see to live Just a little bit longer Rufuz I love more than myself It does tear me up inside & out But what else can I do…………L I DO NOT want charity Too many need it more The end is near Two more weeks I fear My birthday on August third May be of my life the end I am such a stupid turd…L I cannot sleep, I think, then cry This supposed adult can’t stop I don’t want to be near anyone I don’t want to talk to anyone All for the want of a measly seven hundred Maybe I can sell the car, but couldn’t then Get to a job even if I found one…L Not yet am I dead But I am not far away Sorry for this whining From your normally Happy writer, ED… © ed L 7/15/08

Reviewed by Lois Christensen

Reviewed on July 15, 2008

Give it more time Ed, you have been hanging in there. We are all praying for you and Rufuz. Please don't disown your best Pal. Rufuz needs you. It is so sad the financial situation you are in but a new job might be just around the corner. You have to have more faith and don't give up so easily. Try to get positive about this and something will give in your life. Enjoy each day as it comes and let tomorrow worry about itself. Live today and things will be o.k. Prayers for you. A shocking write coming again from you, it made me kind of sad.

Reviewed by Tinka Boukes

something I can relate too...the money problem has a tight grip on the new fuel price..it is killing our economy!!

Love :( sTinka

Reviewed by J. Allen Wilson

Ed, you hang in there...I had hoped those listings I sent would give you a hit...I wish there was something I could do...and one thing that I will do and that is pray for your funds to arrive ASAP

Al

Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner

You're scaring me, Ed - please don't take the easy way out. Might be over for you, but not for us left behind - our pain would just be beginning. You and Rufuz are a team: a pair. He needs you as much as you need him. Have you talked to Rene about this? Couldn't you move in with her? Talk to someone. I wish I could help you - you're in my prayers.

(((((HUGS))))) and love, Karla. *tears*

Reviewed by Mr. Ed

It's always the very darkest, just before the dawn, brother. And I know, because I've been there myself. And when I realized that whining wasn't helping, I finally saw the light, and I managed to get back on track. I know that you can, too. Keep On, Keepin On, and something Good may be just around the corner.

Reviewed by Rose Rideout

Ed hold on, You are being tested dear. If you feel someone needs it more than you, than you haven't hit bottom and can still climb out. Rufuz is your best friend and he yours, you need each other. Take care Ed know that others thik of you.

Newfie hugs and heart are with you, Rose

Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado

You may not believe, Ed, but maybe the only thing you can do is learn to lean on God and pray. I will ask the Lord for a miracle (or two) for you; God bless you, my friend. I love you!

((((((((((HUGS))))))))), many prayers, and much love to you and Rufuz~

As always, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :( >tears! <

Reviewed by Georg Mateos

That's a lot of rope you have there, are you sure that you aren't at the wrong end of it? maybe it's not the end you knucklehead brother maybe is the begining of something new.
Hold it there, something may come your way if you bit hard and roll with the punches.

Georg