In the absence of you
time remains empty
Despite the long days
and shorter nights
I am left wondering
what it was that was too
for you
I've always been too something
Simply not enough for others
More often too much
Too black
Too skinny
Too fast
Too tall
Too slow
Too ugly
Too outspoken
Too big
Too short
Too pretty
Too smart
Too quiet
Too passive
Too agressive
But never enough
So, I am left to wonder
which too drove you away?
Was it simply the effects of a life
full of contradictions?
You were the only consistency
Knowing that you would be there
Feeling that I was just enough for you
if not for anyone else in the world
And I am not left wondering
in a world where time presses on
I wanted to be enough for you
if for no one else.
But instead I am here standing
in the absence of you.
Yes Blackberry, this is very wonderfully expressed, from deep in your heart and soul. Happy New Year Blackberry Jam, to you, and those whom you love.
May the Lord Jesus bless you, and those whom you love, and be with you always, and at your side constantly. With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS)))))))))), your little sister, Barbie
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
Blackberry. first of all it is so great to see you back on board again, you have been missed. As for this poem it is very self reflective and I hope it is not a personnal statement for it rings with self doubt which is somthing you should certainly not have. Great job though of a sad subject.
An achingly sad write. The feeling of not being enough is something that is often a reflection of our own insecurity. You have no reason to be insecure. It is obvious you're a talented, sensitive and insightful person. May you find that you are more than enough.
Chanti
Wow! This is a beautiful and deep write...if there is someone who has left your life...they are missing out on a fantastic poet, their loss. Nice write my friend don't be so hard on yourself, often times it is the one who departs where the problem lies.
Blessings,
Joyce Bowling
A deep deep look inside the dynamics of emotional exchange within relationships. IN THE ABSENCE OF YOU makes me wonder if we sometimes both offer and expect "too much" in our unions with others. A great thought-provoking read.
Aberjhani
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May the Lord Jesus bless you, and those whom you love, and be with you always, and at your side constantly. With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS)))))))))), your little sister, Barbie
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
Fee
Chanti
Blessings,
Joyce Bowling
Aberjhani