I find it so hard to put it all into words
the way I feel about you
the way I won't allow myself to feel about you
the conflicting emotions
the pleasure of your eyes upon me
the beauty that you exemplify
despite obstacles you remain ever vigilent
tenacious even
I like it!
A man who knows what he wants
and isn't afraid to pursue it
no matter how long it takes
Seeing the real me
hiding beneath the layers
yet under your gaze I am unprotected
you unveil all my insecurities
you look at me in non judgement
I like it!
Yet I still won't fully allow you into my heart
unsure
insecure
uncomfortable in my own skin
yet comfortable in your presence
No one has ever gazed at me with such intensity
leaving me afraid to consider
all the possibilities
feeling not enough
although you make me feel I am all you need
still afraid
scared to love
you see, I'm finding it so hard to put it all into words
this complexity of emotions
thoughts and emotions colliding
coming from all directions
I push you away and you keep moving forward
tenacity
I like it!
Playing hard to get
or just scared to let go
Afraid of losing what we have
Yearning for what we can obtain
Knowing that it is better than the lonely nights
Still feeling like I'm not enough
And forming the words is so hard
letting go is so hard
Allowing myself to need you
Letting you fully into my heart
Setting aside a place in my life
Knowing I can trust you
Seeing the beauty in your spirit
Still afraid to let go
Why am I finding it so hard
to put it all into words
I want to let go and be free
I want to love you
I want you
in
my
life