Storm clouds swirl, inside

My head, spinning like a carousel.

Faster, music blaring, until my being is light

I arise from the dreams.

These sleepless visions that cause me to tremble,

To float through the night, like a wandering spirit

I stay awake, because

When I try to sleep I’m haunted

By thoughts that race in circles in my mind.

Thoughts of betrayal, of loss,

Thoughts that may come to pass,

Unless I keep my mind alert, always vigilant

Don’t stop.  Don’t sleep.

They come like a flood.  They engulf my soul.

These thoughts that keep me ever wakeful

Give voice to these, my silent fears?

I dare not speak a word.  For, if spoken,

Thoughts become reality and walls are erected.

Structures that cannot be

Torn down as easily as those made of mortar

And of stone, separate us from life and love.

My tongue, I will hold.

My thoughts, I will keep safe in my weariness,

Until, one day, peace comes.  Only then will I sleep.