I am trying to be what you need...
It is not fair the way you disown me.
I guess I could never be what you want..
I am just a genetic link..
an unwanted memory left to haunt.
I am not perfect.. though I try to be..
The same blood you have also runs through me..
All I have is my unconditional love.
Something you may never know the value of..
For even in the end of this life..
that you are soon to leave.
You cannot give me one small piece of your heart .. unselfishly.
Everything seems to have a cost..
Pay for love, family, friendship or all is lost.
I am your disappointment ..
The unwanted one..
But I cannot change what is done..
I never meant to cause you pain.
I never wanted to be your shame..
I think that is what I am in your eyes.
I am sorry things had to end this way.
But I cannot be your disappointment another day.
Good bye my father....
May God give you all you want.
May God give you all I was not..
May I never be more than a mist of a memory..
of a small failure you cannot quite see......me.

Erica Ivory

To my father... with all my unconditional love forever.