Once again .. as requested ..

She lived in a prison as child..
One made up by adults..
She had no control
She could not talk..
Close a door..
Take a morsel of food..
Turn on a TV..
Pick up a phone
or just go outside..
No.. these were forbidden,..
Without permission..
They were always fighting..
Someone usually got hurt..
She was always in the middle..
Trying to stop the madness
make it go away..
To just be a family..
just try it for a day..
After black eyes..
and a broken nose..
Countless black and blue marks
to her young soul..
After being called every name ..
This nine year old
could take no more..
So she finally she grew a spine.
or maybe she just lost her mind...
she fought back..
she talked back..
she closed doors..
turned on TV's
she ate food sometimes
when she pleased..
She took her beatings
as they came..
but she continued
to confront them..
she was insane..
She didn't care
if she lived or died..
She had no reason
to run or hide.
She screamed at them
as they bruised her skin
"if that makes you feel better"
"Do it again"
and again..
and again
Because she was insane..
Fat lips, bloody nose, broken bones..
who cares she was in control..
She didn't care..
She wanted her world
to burn in despair..
She wanted to take them with her..
into her eternal hell..
THEY no longer controlled her..
She controlled them..
Controlled their emotions..
that led to their actions.
and even though she
had to live with the blame and the pain..
It just didn't matter..
because she was insane..

ERICA

Emotion is the enemy of rationality and logic.. When it becomes strong enough to control your actions.. your life is no longer your own..
She loved them as much as she hated them.. but she was insane