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When nights are long..
When sleep will
not release me..
My body weary
My mind dead..
My soul spent..
From memories  ..
That want to spread..
My heart weeps
Flooding my bed..
With tears of hot
crimson red..
Finally I float on this
sea of tears..
My mind falls into
dreams of the past..
I dream of you..
I reach for you
through the darkness
To feel your comfort..
To find the truth..
Searching for the
slightest feel of you..
Praying..
You will see me..
Willing myself to
stay in this dream.
Because it is the only place
I have the slightest chance..
That perhaps you will find me..
Tell me all is forgiven..
Let me feel your soul..
Feel anything..
To release this hunger ..
That cannot be filled..
There is no food to fill this
emptiness I have inside..
No water..
To quench this thirst
of mine..
So I drowned..
Choking on guilt as
dry as desert sand..
Hoping to find you
in my dreams..
To finally make amends.
But it just never happens..
Because you are not with me..
I try to sense you
in my house..
Talking to you..
Hoping for a sign..
Just a little something..
To tell me you are near..
But I feel nothing ..
Not a shimmer of you..
I know my words
You do not hear.
So I cry crimsom tears..
From my heart..
Loooking for you
In coldest dark..
Because I NEED to tell you..
I love you..
I just don't know how.
You were not with me in life..
You are not with me now..
Am I to wait for my death?
To see you again..
And when I do walk up to you
On my that Judgment Day..
Will you even then
turn your back on me
again and walk away?
Tell me..
I am trying to
make things right..
Help me..
Please help me..
Find you..
Reach you..
Feel you..
Through this endless night.