I'm Just Pretending

My vision of life

I do not see clear

I tend to see more

Than what’s really there.

Though I melt like the snow

With love rarely shared

Disappear like the wind

After all that I’ve bared.

Succinctly sink softly 

Moods misunderstood

Into bliss and pine needles

And the snow laden woods.

I can’t wallow much smaller

Than drops of a tear

The dew and the splash

When the elements shear

On rocks and ravines

The smoothness it brings

Leftover to cover

The singing of spring.

I’m lost in it’s realm

This world not of me

Forever a winter

Frost and shiver so be.

Invisible, I try

To stay out of the way

The voice in the night

Or day, pray that I may

Be called to surmise

A specific demise

And cause the effect

Of my long endless cries.

But I’m just pretending.

I’m just pretending to be sad.

Laurie B. Ballard 5/16/11