as this holiday approach, and the joy starts to settle, in knocks me right back down, my spirit is lifted, my house is filled with joy as always, but my heart is empty,

reality comes crashing in an i am filled with this void, this void of emptiness, a hole that can never be filled,

i am a lost, in my everyday life when i look over my shoulders and he is not there, a smile that can never be for gotten, a friend that can never be replaced,

i say over and over again why me, why us, and then i think to myself, everyone has crossed this road, had a lost so great, and i can only say i know, i know that it is a destiny for everyone to pass,

my love is losted and my heart melts everyday, and i can not lie, i will never stop grieving, i can not be settled in this thought of exception,