For my brother-in-law who was never given human children.....

how can i
know what to do
you have looked to me
with trusting eyes for nigh on fifteen years
i knew you at six weeks
i remember your soft sweet wiggle in my hand
you have been my companion
ever
happy to see me
ever
happy to share
your bounding enthusiasm
ears flapping in the wind
body wagging
happy to please me
eager always
at the door
my dear friend
we have had a life
you and i
and
now i must
decide
i know that you trust me still
i know that
and my heart is broken
with the loss
we sit and face
eye to eye
thank you
you are my child, my friend, my life
and i will never forget just how wonderful you are
how can i
know what to do