today
i decided to say
to write
to get it right
not sometime late at night
when i'd already lost sight
of what have might
have been
before the rum & the gin
and to have to begin agin...

today
i decided to pray
to lay
the cards on the table
if i'm able
if i can get stable

'ebuff to see
me
and just who i be
and where i come from
maybe that be dumb
but oh well
oh hell
here i be be
for you to see me

my life's story

now what i think
i am
don't mean a damn
sam
that's just another drink
another dream
just another scheme
when my mind tell's me
who it thinks i be

today anyway
i face the me that i be
and who i have been
facin' & tracin'
my Life's sin

at an early age
i weren't no sage
(but a high iq id)
afterall ti was the first page
of my rage
my fashion
back when
i had a passion

so at15 or as it 16
or soewhere in betweeen
i began to drink
to think
know what i mean?

to escape reality
to escape me bein' me
can you see?

but,
by 18
i had my hut

i was a nut
i was smokin' pot
not a little, a lot
what not
it was only a part, only pot
smoke, toke, drink, sink, don't never blink
take away reality
that was it for me
can you see?

and as i grew older
i grew bolder
a true soldier

grass & mescaline
lsd & other things
each with their own wings
to fly
each with there oen thing to try
if you you know what mean

mushroom's & back rooms
that's what i found
give me a broom
to sweep out those sounds
to sweep away today's
and yesterday's
they past there ways

i got marriesd
got carried
at 19
a love that was lean
know what i mean?

we'd been together
for ever & ever
since 16
know what i mean?

then i found another
oh brother

auburn hair
hazel eyes
blue or green know what i mean
she took my heart
all of that part
i fell IN LOVE
with all of the above

we fell in love
we fell in lust

but now i must
refrain...
to save my brain...

i will write later
for those who don't know's
she's my love forever
and it shows

so poetry about me
always say's
ella i love you

so 1day 1 night
i may write

a lovesong that is new


it was only pot
had a little, had a lot
what not
it was only pot
or a drink
least neither one made you think

take away reality for me
that's what's it's for
for sure
ain't no reslity
not in the world of the dead
head

but instead...
there i be
lookin' at me
it ain't gone away
so i say
i pray

Life is just History
for you and me

times that past
they never last
spell;s that they cast

they be philosophy
History

just my Life's Story