a Change came today.
not in the weather
nor in the way things be.
a Change came today in Me.

where had i been & where was i going?
what Were the seeds i was sowing?
what had happened to make me feel this way?
what had happened to make me dread each day?

i woke up late again, that's not like me.
used to be i was up 'fore the sun, it's rising to see.
lately i've been sleepin' sometimes till' 2 or 3.
i looked in the mirror & didn't like what i could see.
i was but shade of the man i want to be.
i was pale, that's not me.
not white, never white, too much comanche.
but i seemed pale, like my skin was hollow.
by this time of summer i'm always brown.
copper, even chestnut if there's enough sun around.
so today i lay in the sun 'till i felt the red,
that sting that comes when the pale is gone.
by sunday i'll be brown.
and i'll be Me.

and as i looked i noticed i had softened.
not fattened, but my muscles were not taut.
sittin' in an apartment for 5 months,
my body had gotten the farm i had bought.
so i walked today. used to be i'd do 7 miles a day.
today i did 3.
but in a couple a weeks, i'll be Me.

i looked around at what a slob i'd become.
dust & dirt & clutter.
empty pantry & fridge.
so i resolved to clean the mess.
buy groceries tomorrow i guess.
cook & eat & enjoy what my Life be.
then i'll be Me.

i opened my door at sunset
let the cool breeze in & fresh air to get.
i'll look at the stars & moon,
their light i'll enjoy soon.
the sunrise i'll see.
Then, I'll Be Me.