spent too many days
hidin' away
in a bottle.
tryin' ta' drink my life away.
too many years
hidin' the fears
hidin' the tears
tryin' ta' drink my life away.

it's hard to feel
when you've never felt
life outside of a bottle.
medicated.
sedated.
drunk.
hard ta' think what ya' think
much less remember
what ya' thunk.

it's hard to deal
with life when it's real.
happy & sad.
good & bad
love & lost.
it's hard ta' pay the cost
of too many days
too many years
drinkin' away all your fears.

when i look at me
not sure what i see.
but what is is.
and what was was
cause
i spent to many days
too many years
not facin' my fears
not feelin' the tears
just drinkin' my life away.

but not today.