It’s been three years

I’ve spent waiting on a healing

All the while getting new scars and old scabs peeling

But today it all came to like an epiphany

Not only have I been healed

But I’m stronger and wiser than I use to be

No it didn’t erase the painful memories

Bit reversed my frame of mind

No longer filled with negative thoughts

But the positive of pain and time

Learning from life’s lessons

And the tribulation it brings

It’s all about your perception of things

I’ve redefined who I am

My dignity My worth My pride

No one else can cause I’m me

And what’s mine is mine

With my heart now warm and mended

I’m filled with love and passion my dreams reinvented

No longer filled with fear but full of possibility

I’ve learned its ok to be afraid

Just can’t let it interfere with my decisions

I realize now faith is how I’m living

I know I could never be who I use to be

So my past is my history

It can never be recaptured

Thinking me or things could back to being the same

Is like believing in time travel

Cause we’re always learning

Or experiencing something new

Constantly processing the accumulation

Of every moments piece of information

Whether they be good or bad evaluations

The more you know the more things keep changing

So it’s impossible to duplicate the past

With new situations

That’s why I’m living in the moment knowing my futures awaiting

Cause now I know that the past is my enemy

It’s clear that it wasn’t time that would spawn a miraculous healing

but it was God given knowledge wisdom and understanding that healed me