Mentally Deficient

Is there a mental deficiency

within my brain?

I know I should feel absolute pain

in the suffering of others,

that I should feel absolute pain

in the pain of others.

And yes,

I do!

However,

the horrors that assail us daily,

that deluge our senses

with untold pain

with untold cruelty

with lack of reason.

Awakening, what will today bring?

Awakening,

first conscious thought may well be:

What is the horror this day will bring?

A bomb blowing a government building

to smithereens killing hundreds?

Planes flying into buildings

killing thousands?

A hurricane blowing the ocean into a city

killing and displacing hundreds of thousands?

A tsunami washing cities away

killing and displacing hundreds of thousands?

An earthquake destroying a country

killing and displacing hundreds of thousands?

A coal mine collapsing

trapping and smothering dozens?

A mother drowning her children?

A father killing his children?

A rampaging lunatic killing all within sight?

A fetus torn from the ripped stomach

of an expectant mother?

What is the horror of this day?

What is the daily horror this day will bring,

...that tomorrow will bring?

I know I should feel absolute pain

in the suffering of others,

that I should feel absolute pain

in the pain of others,

and I do...

yet...

In a strange way I feel detached.

In a strange way I feel my mind

overloaded with the new horror

that assails me daily,

that deluge my senses

that,

in a strange way

leaves me feeling detached

and not as sympatric

as I know I should feel

leaving me to ask,

am I mentally deficient?  

Is there a mental deficiency

within my brain?