In this silence I struggle

Because its you I need

to fulfill a hidden desire that is

bursting to come out

I knew it was you that I wanted

from the very open of the play

and no I didn't say

what I needed to then

Funny I know

Being we were as close

as any two people could be

Man or Woman or within each one of two

but in the middle of those moves

I neglected to reflect on you

and the nature of my true feelings

maybe it was

I shied away

from what it is

you would have

or could have

said

rejection is a solo reflection

of something that is beyond my reach

topped off with the inner world wind

of the center of every emotion I have left

and never could I have known what was felt

or what I would feel

all that's in this, that is real

within the midmost of appeal

the fantasy seals the deal

us on an island

somewhere

kicking back in the sun

with me being the one

the only one

you share your life with

in these thoughts my mind sit

idle, cripple, and quiet

by the sin-ful-ness of my silence