memorized each line to keep
saying only not from heart
stood aside a mount too steep
take a step was all my part.

yet i stood so shadowed still
hearing only echoes loud
of past pleasures, yes until
comes a step back, not forward.

all the while i knew i could
forget all that i have passed
murmer regrets then i would
fall down to my knees so fast.

shame, indeed, sorrow i bear
pretend to know what to do
burdened, sitting on this chair
i can't even write what's true .