Sometimes I think the world won't forgive me
for not falling for its ultimatum of only keeping
parts of myself it can understand and throwing the
rest away. That's just insane.
How can I decide who I am?
How can I decide what, when
I open my eyes in the morning
and all I see is change?
Everything's rearranged and
it feels strange.
I grew up in California.
I slept through earth quakes
as a child. I woke up to
witness the earth shaking
and everything found on
the ground.
Well, growth is like an earth
quake only a little more
permanent. You can recognize
the objects which have broken
but, sometimes you can't recognize
yourself.
How is this healthy?
How is this fair?
I can't change who I am
as easy as I can the color
of my hair.
Yes, there are a thousand sides
to me. Did you think to splinter
them into a thousand shards?
So sorry to inconvenience you.
So sorry you feel confused.
You can't fit me neatly into
a category or snugly in a
remaining space of your jigsaw
puzzle. Why would you try to?
Why do you want to?
Distorted perception is not true .
you are beautiful. And I am neither inconvenienced
nor confused. Well, sometimes, but not today.
But probably the kind of therapy you need to shed the grief of loss.
Ron