No matter how much you fight it you know it’s in vain. You stand there dumbstruck thinking about them. You try to forget but you know you want to remember each moment spent is an infinite eternity. Memories are the last standing strands that are keeping you wanting more, yet no matter how many words said or not nothing has changed. You can decide to feel that pain and embrace every more grief, sorrow and sadness. You ask yourself why and you already know the answer it is a fire that will never burn out inside. It has been there this entire time and you can’t help but stare. A smile goes across your face and life stands still for just an instant I can only say I wish I could give you a gift so internal but that time has come and gone.

It is different now as I write these very words I understand that there is no understanding to this feeling. It is the greatest strength and the most crippling of weaknesses I feel the need to say something. I feel the need to speak out but all I can do is smile at the thought of you. I understand that there is no understanding, in this feeling there is so many things. More than just a bright happiness or joy there is also the strangest sadness that lingers about. Some say that love at first sight is a fairy tale I disagree, it exist for all it’s just something that can’t be searched for it just has to be found. It finds you at the most unexpected of places and envelops you, opening your eyes to the unexpected this feeling transforms you.

You are no longer who you once were every thought no matter how little or grand is connected to that special someone you can’t bare to be away from them and are driven mad by the very thought. That is why I now see that love is a dangerous thing indeed something people fall into and realize they are so close to the dark depths of sadness while others soar with it and live in a state of bliss. I wish I could say I knew where I stood all I can say is I have fallen I do not know if it will be into the depths of into that sky. For it is as I already said I understand that there is no understanding and no matter what I do or say that is the way it is.

All I know is that no matter what happens I know one thing in this endless uncertainty. This feeling, this spark, this flame, is the greatest of strength and the most crippling of weaknesses because as I said before there is no understanding there is only each moment and no matter what that feeling will continue to burn on.