There are times my feelings consume me
My mind wanders away and I cannot breathe
Though the darkest days have passed
There is a part of me that didn't make the journey
Something lost, I cannot even look for
As I know not what it is
I only know of the empty place
Where I presume it used to be
I try to fill my days
With enough distraction
that I won't notice
It doesn't always work
Then I am reminded of the hole inside of me
Other times it draws me near
screaming for attention
Hungering to come home
And I am forced to recognize
against my will
that I am not, the same me
Sure I can say, "I'm better, wiser, stronger"
Having survived the darker side of life
I can say, "I should be happy, things are better now"
Count my blessings of today
And if it's a choice I choose happiness
Yet still and all
That is the mind talking
My heart says differently
And today, it speaks the loudest
Sudo Nym June 9, 2004 All Rights Reserved
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For it is far ahead, if I can be sure of it,
And far it is, that my hallucination be valid,
And hallucination it is, as it should be,
And however, unlike itself, mysterious, unknown, and untested,
So it be foreseen in my tireless search.
Sometimes people who think that we have changed do not realize that they, too, have changed as well. No one stays the same as time goes by.
Sometimes, we are disappointed by some who used to be friends, and now they aren't friends anymore, and that all go with the flow of life. We change and people change as well.
Anyway...you've picked a good topic to write this poem, and look how it got me talking. :)
A thought-provoking piece!
Sandie May Angel a.k.a. Sandie Angel :o)