24 Hours

I spent today alone-
     Without motivation
      or companionship

Nothing to wake up for-
      I slept late you see
      and woke only to stare
      at the ceiling in disbelief

No way could it be suspended
      by the four corners of my
      room-
      Today is the day it caves
      in on me

I skipped coffee today-
      I could feel the thirst in
      my veins quenched only
      with water as the dead 
      skin on my fingertips
      drank

I stepped out today-
      With sun blinded eyes
      only to walk the dog,
      only because I had no 
      choice - I prefer my
      house in order

My mind went numb today-
      I forgot the security
      code for my building,
      stood in a trance waiting
      for someone to enter

I had visitors today-
      Memories of loved ones
      passed on, my own inadequacies
      and a stack of bills on the
      table

I bought groceries today-
      Sudden hunger felt I
      haven't eaten for days
      Come to think of it I
      am looking slimmer

I went to work today-
      Seems I haven't worked
      for weeks although I must
      have judging from the uniform

I've been sober now 24 hours