Sudden realisation of where you are

You try to find many ways to improve your life, because things are very bad now, maybe a new wife?

Whatever you try you find that nothing really works and you feel that in the background something undefineable lurks.

But being you, you have to try, even though all you really wish for now is to lay down and die.

Then one day reality comes to say, this is not normal reality, you are now in a play. You are now in a mind game and you are the star and what you wish for most in life, is where you already are.

John McMiken