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Kind of a Maudlin Kind of a Day
by Mark M Lichterman → (All Poetry by Mark M Lichterman)
Wednesday, December 4, 2019 Rated "G" by the Author.

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Thoughts of one gone These past near six years
Kind of a maudlin Kind of a day Kind of a maudlin kind of a day Today Though the sky Is blue And temperature hovers Into high sixties To low seventies Along with a slight Though cool breeze Today Though having no knowledge Why Though feeling well I find thoughts causing A slight watering to my eyes And a slight flutter To the area of my heart As… Thoughts of one gone These past near six years And though the last years Of our lives were Of anger and pain And hatred and illness And though the Death of my wife was met Yes… The death of my wife Was met with tears and Relief along with more Than a bit of sorrow For what should have been For what could have been Sadly… In all honesty The death of my wife was met At least by me With a little more Joy than sorrow Because Yes... She was out of pain and Because Yes... Because there was more hatred than love Because Yes... Beyond my care Beyond what I Could do for her Because… From her point of view I never did enough Because... From my point of view I could never do enough Because she was in a place hated Hated with all her heart Rationalizing... Rationalizing the death of my wifw For her… Rationalizing the death of my wife I thought for her death is good For me Rationalizing… Was I wrong Am I wrong for wanting my life to go on Am I wrong for wanting to love again Am I wrong for wanting the speeding Moments, minutes, hours, days, weeks Months and years to go by without loving again’ There was a time… There was a time so many years ago It seems the life of two other people There was a time we vowed everlasting love There was a time... There was a time so many years ago It seems the life of two other people When we lovingly argued she or me Could not live Would not wish to live Were one or the other to die How wrong How wrong because when She was gone I felt a bit happier than sad Because my life was mine again Mine to find love again And yet… Kind of a maudlin Kind of a day Today…. Though the sky Is blue And the temperature hovers Into high sixties To low seventies Along with a slight Though cool breeze Today Though having no knowledge Why Though feeling well I find thoughts causing A slight watering to my eyes And a slight flutter To the area of my heart Because… Because I do miss the Love I once had ©May 7, 2010 Mark M. Lichterman