Looking out the big bay window actually frightened me this evening, making me realize it was going to be a treacherous trip to my mother's home.  It hurt me that we argued on the phone but I wasn't going to let anyone tell me what to do.

My daughter had the nerve to tell me that if I was a good mother, I would listen once in a while to her opinions and actually hear what she is saying.  Why should I have to take advice from a child.  Ok, so she's 25 years old.

Frustrated, I worked my way out the door, carrying an armload of bags, "damn," I almost slipped.  This reinforcing my fear of what was coming.  Yes, I could see a snowstorm developing from the north.  Not something I particularly needed at this time.

Once on the highway, there was no turning back.  My family were expecting me and I was determined this wouldn't stop me.  They may think I react badly to certain situations.  I will straighten them out once I arrive at my destination

Suddenly about an hour on the dark highway, a huge animal appeared in my headlights.  I swerved to avoid it  so I slammed on my brakes, but it was too late.  Hitting the animal as I lost control of the wheel.  I was thrown forward, my ribbs hitting the steering wheel as I kept propelling into the windshield.

Everything going black, as my life passed before my eyes.   Hearing the terrible things I said to my mother on the phone and the nasty way I spoke to my child the night before, all came back to me, as if it was happining all over again. 

Finally coming out of the blackness and remembering.  I realized I was alone.  Painfully looking around,  seeing no traffic on the road .  The terror set in. 

I could die out here by myself, I won't be able to tell them I'm sorry and that I love them.  As I prayed for help with the tears streaming down my face.  I suddenly heard a siren in the distance.   Thank God I may get out of this alive.

As the ambulance drivers and police  gently removed me from my wreck of a car.  They realized I didn't have a seat belt on.  I was so upset and angry when I got into the car this evening I must have forgotten to strap myself in. 

A long trip to the hospital and a stern warning from the police officer who escorted me.  I was lucky to be alive and yes. now thankfully, I would get the chance to make things right with my family.