In my emotional journey to fun and happiness my primary aim is becoming my True self, and this means being able to manage the diversity of the human experience so I enjoy every moment. Realizing I started out on this journey in my infancy before I could articulate my preferences I now see I learned early to relinquish my power to those around me. The common practice across the generations of humanity was parental guidance as the first of a long line of authorities to which I had to bow and give reverence. I innately knew something was wrong with that picture and I acted on it from early childhood. I became a rebel – with and without a cause.
Wanting to do what I wanted to do, I pushed against one and then another authority, not out of happiness and fun, but from anger. While I did not regain my power with my perpetual “pushing against”, I practiced several elements of power starting during my teenage years. Only I did see it as power; instead it was something I could not discuss with others because I was afraid of what they would think of me. I had not heard discussions on what I was doing and I had no idea how these powers came about, but I practiced the powers I did to meet certain immediate needs. Very simply I followed inner guidance to accomplish things I had no other means to do.
The first power I recall practicing was performing a creative dance as part of a test in high school. The moment I stepped on stage for the performance I “stepped into” the image I saw in the mind's eye of a professional dancer. My one-time performance far excelled my expectations and I was pleased with the responses of my teacher and classmates. With the next recalled power I woke up at precisely the required times during the night to take a prescribed medication every four hours for a 24-hour period without the use of an alarm.
I moved forward with my power in young adulthood after marrying and becoming a mother. One Saturday morning when my son at age three years, he climbed into my bed telling me he did not feel good. He felt “hot” to the touch. While I was deciding what to do I held him in my arms and asked to “take what he had”. Just as quickly I felt a surge of energy flow through me; suddenly I felt awful, overcome with a fever and could barely move. At the same time my son hopped out of bed with complete vigor, bright eyes and ready to play. A moment or so later, I asked to feel better, and immediately felt that energy move out of my body. And I hopped out of bed with complete vigor, ready to move forward with my day.
About 15 years later I waited for a driver to take me to a location where I would help manage a Red Cross shelter. I felt prompted to stand up in the middle of my living room and direct the course of a hurricane that was stalled just off shore about 100 miles south of where I was. I felt myself larger than life and looking up and down the shore, I saw the coastal outlines of several states from North Carolina to the New England states. With my hands in the water, I carved out a path for the hurricane to “skirt” the coast instead of making landfall. Skirting the coast was how the reporters on the weather channel described the storm the next morning.
Such instances of power stirred my curiosity. I wanted to know how I was able to do these things. So in my very early adulthood, I started reading and listening to tapes on metaphysics. I studied and practiced various forms of power I read and heard about. I had so much fun and joy practicing this power. I continued, studying and practicing every thing I could find, illustrating my innate power. Only recently did I find this power was part of my non-physical focus – indeed part of the non-physical focus of every human. I realized I had practiced my power only partially and wanted to learn how to make it prominent in all areas of my life.
