Now let me start, letting you know all is well and everything is working out for me. This part of my story, my emotional journey with my family was the best thing I have experienced. Being with my family while I am learning to practice control over my vibrations is an ongoing gift that just keeps on giving. Of most significance was my increased focus on desires activated through the diversity of day-to-day experiences in my family. Aiming to align my physical focus with my non-physical focus within my family, I knew I could by being happy and having fun.

I was already having fun practicing control of my vibrations as I navigated my emotional journey through various adventures. But I noticed a trend developed along with changes in the household – a pattern of unhappy periods. I was curious about this since I was devoted to my joy vigil and wellbeing. Realizing all is well and knowing everything is working out for me I was perplexed by the angry complaints I was hearing. My thinking about these complaints was up and down, and I seemingly kept recycling the bad feelings I was feeling. All I wanted was for them to stop.

I knew enough about vibrations and the Law of Attraction to see I had increased the momentum of my bad feelings by thinking about the angry complaints, and I was keeping them coming and going. I had already seen my family members directing anger toward each other and I felt bad about that, but when they started directing that anger toward me I was at a loss of how this could happen to me. I felt really bad.

So I did not see any basis for their anger toward me, but I could see they were not holding good opinions of me. And it felt worse when I noticed they were spending more and more time away from me and did not include me in the information loop. I began to think my family members thought I was not worthy of their positive attention. Things they said and questions they asked me made me think I was always wrong or incapable of doing things right. Feeling invalidated and useless, I noticed I was feeling worse and worse.

All my life I did not like feeling bad and whenever a bad feeling came over me, I did everything I could to make sure I was feeling happy and having fun – long before I knew this was part of my emotional journey. But now I knew my emotional guidance system was right on target, and I realized my bad feelings showed I was resisting my expansion. I realized I was resisting who I had already become because of these experiences with my family. Here I was feeling bad about my family life and I was feeling bad about feeling bad. Clearly I wanted things to change.

I knew enough about vibrations to realize I needed a distraction so I could get on track with the happy family I desired. As soon as I checked the scale of emotions to see where I was on this emotional journey with my family, I realized I had all the distraction I needed. Earlier on I had realized I could lower my momentum just thinking about my emotional journey. I felt a sense of ease coming over me, a soothing, and with this I noticed I was feeling better. I used this self-soothing to offset my resistance. Still I noticed some tension at the thought of my family and I knew I was not yet at the place I wanted to be. I knew certain vibrations were still active and I had to make a shift, including other vibrations in my vibration.

It was easy to see what was going on. I was using my physical focus to observe members of my family, and my view was limited to the parts of their lives my physical senses interpreted and I made decisions with the limited knowledge of my reasoning intellect. Giving attention to what I saw and heard, I did not consider them in terms of being on an emotional journey, reaching for better feeling thoughts and I did not consider the desires I activated in the process.

With each episode of bad feelings I went through, I discovered more about my expansion and I felt a wave of appreciation come over me. Suddenly I realized what I had considered opposition was really inspirational. Then I decided to expand my perspective from observing just one part of their lives to observing other parts. This meant being consciously aware of my non-physical focus. Just thinking about the scope of my non-physical focus, I knew I had a broader view of my family members and could prompt the ongoing happiness and fun that was waiting for me to let it happen. I thought about the scope of my non-physical focus and realized I could observe each family member from the perspective of an individual universal and infinite nature. I knew I could freely apply my omnipresence and omnipotence, with infinite intelligence to create a clear vibration to which the Law of Attraction could respond. I knew I could allow unfettered family happiness starting at the vibrational perspective.

So I had included the vibration of the complaints in my vibration and had activated that vibration in me, making myself “an easy target”. My pain started before I knew I could consciously reach for better feeling thoughts. Really my complaints about the complaints while increasing energy around the complaints were my efforts to find a better feeling. Somehow I thought they would “listen to reason”.  Our discussions did not bring about resolve, and we did not get to that magic place where the laughter happened. Not only were we not happy together, we were not laughing together like we used to. And we were not having fun even in the simple things we shared.

My desire for fun and happiness was so strong and intense I knew I had to find my way to where I wanted to be with my family. But I realized I had to get beyond my desire for them to change so I could be happy. I had already considered their complaints and knew I could not change who and what I am to make them happy. So how could I require them to change so I could be happy, yet that is what I was doing until I decided the only thing I really wanted was having my physical focus aligned with my non-physical focus. I called that desire “being in the vortex”.

Catching myself when thinking about things my family members had said, I merely said to myself, “I want to be in the vortex”. I use the term “vortex” to signify the feeling thoughts joy, clarity, freedom, empowerment, love and appreciation. Just wanting to be in the vortex was enough to shift my focus and activate a different vibration. Oh was I so pleased with the way my family members talked and acted after my shift. They were nice! They talked nicely and showed consideration. Right away I realized they were responding to the new vibration. It was as though they were freed to be nice.

Aligning my physical focus with my non-physical focus, I started thinking about what I am feeling when I am feeling love and when I am feeling appreciation, and what I am feeling when I am feeling validation. I took it easy then I thought about what I am feeling when I am feeling cherished and adored. I took so much pleasure basking in the feeling of each emotion I thought. I noticed I was taking delight in these feelings and I felt the thrills running through my being. I made this my daily practice, all through the day and night.

From the first day I started practicing feeling love and appreciation, validation and adoration, along with being cherished, I noticed conversations with family members became easier and easier. I heard them tell me things they were doing and actually heard lovely tones of voice. I saw more smiles and I heard them saying things that sounded like “caring” and inclusion. Each day I practiced these vibrations I noticed my family members responding to my vibration. I am still seeing we are making our happy family prominent in our experiences with each other.