Memories Beyond the Sunset

I remember the Buenos Aires sunrise,
and corner houses,
the smell of coffee and honeysuckle vines.
Children playing, singing *La farolera,
purple jacaranda, red coral trees,
and feather strokes of yellow
spread across the blue sky.

I remember my school
with red tile roof, a bronze bell,
and its cheerful shiny sound,
I remember my first reader,
white uniforms, braided hair,
satchels with new leather scent,
red apples, and white chocolates,
a brand new notebook under my arm.

I remember wading in the Silver River,
my dress pulled up around the waist,
bonnet protecting my face from the sun,
playing hide and seek, and you’re it!
*Asado by the water’s edge,
washing my face in watermelon,
as weeping willows swayed to the breeze,
seating by the water,
watching Grandpa catch a fish.

I remember sleeping at Grandma’s
and scary shadows on the wall,
and windows with white lace curtains,
and a big round moon outside,
blue light sneaking through the shutters,
bouncing spots on the wooden floor,
and listening to ghostly stories
told by grownups in a room next door.

I remember the barrios,
and jasmine scented nights,
and the giant sycamore branches
that reached across and touched
in the middle and above the cobblestone road,
and couples kissing in the dark,
their faces swaddled by moonbeams
as a distant concertina played their song.

I remember our national anthem:
Oíd mortales el grito sagrado:
Libertad! Libertad! Libertad!
Listen ye mortals to this our sacred cry:
Freedom! Freedom! Freedom! 

FREEDOM! And the bombs kept on falling.
FREEDOM! And the blood kept on spilling.
FREEDOM! I remember fear.
And my city, the one that never slept,
the one once full of life, sound, and lights,
recoiling into darkness, and silence,
and the scent of jasmine
turning into death’s pungent smell.

I remember hiding behind my window,
holding on to the images of cobblestone roads,
and sycamores, and gardenias,
I braced my head against my knees
and struggled to hold... hold on to 
my fading picture of that Buenos Aires sunrise,
and the corner houses began to fall,
and the color, I remembered
turning grey, grey, deadly grey,
and the mental picture collapsed,
as another bomb dropped.

I remember goodbyes and tears,
hugs, and promises to write,
and forever love each other –
promises, memories, words
muddled by time and distance,
and the discovery of another sunrise,
in a distant land – never quite like
the one I left,
that one joyous, childhood sunrise,
gone forever,
blurred in my mind’s eye like an old picture
left abandoned beyond the sunset,
of my Argentina orange sky.

Carmen Ruggero © 2004

*La Farolera: a children’s playground song.
*Asado – Argentinean cookout.