I Remember

I remember the very last time I kissed your still and unmoving lips.

I remember those final minutes that now come in the night on silent clips.

I recall telling the nurse to leave the room as I cleaned your beautiful but ravaged body one last time.

I remember it all like it was today…It shall forever be part of my heart and mind.

I remember the sweetness of our first date with the clarity that I remember our last.

I have been urged by others to move forward and try not to remember the past.

So I sought help today and I cried enough rivers to fill the entire Great Lakes.

They told me that it was not my fault that you died and that your death I would have to soon face.

But I cannot forget, for it is now of whom I am and who I have so effortlessly become.

These are our memories, both good and bad, but always my darling; they were shared in genuine agape love.

 So I can’t forget for I remember so much of our life together and I always remember how you would make me smile.

So forgive me my friends and counselors too if I linger with my precious memories for just a little while.

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For you see I remember the first time that I brought you over to my quaint little house on the hill.

I remember telling you about my vicious dog and how to make sure you look out still.

I recall my heart sinking when you opened up the door and there he was with teeth showing standing on all fours.

And I remember to this day exactly what you said “oh ain’t he cute…are you mamas bad boy….you just want to play catch the girl at the door.”

So now I sit in this darkness and I play these our times over and over in my mind.

I try to think what I would change if I could and it keeps coming back NOTHING, for our love was meant for all time.

For in purest love from eyes so blue you gave me the best twenty two years of my life.

And I will always…I mean always remember that I was so happy to call you my wife.

So Leah… oh Leah do you remember our promise that we made? That last one on the last hour when your breaths were full of labor and pain?

Just know this as you sit with our heavenly Father above.

I shall see you again darling… but in His time…I love you so much and would with joy had taken on your pain….now I miss you so much…but forever shall our hearts twain in the blessed glory of eternal love.

J. Allen Wilson © 10/10/08

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