·        Written poorly I know…written in the midst of pain, but I just  had to write…I had to ask why…I want to see the sun again.

Times of Travail Or Times Of Gain?

How long oh Lord must these trials endure?

A life once splendid, oh how quickly they go away.

Oh Lord…oh Lord, sometimes I feel alone and so unsure.

I watched most helpless in the fall of 08 when sweet Leah passed away.

Then in loneness, then in dark of night the cloud of oppression fought the day.

Shadows so black about me loomed ever so slowly stealing my soul.

Then by surprise one day I saw the sun rise…her name is Jan and she began making me once again whole.

Yet smiles and laughter only a few months did last as in April of 2010 I thought too that Jan as well did pass.

A hemorrhage to her brain left her lifeless and unable to breathe.

So how long oh Lord…how long again I asked of this travail I must see.

I do thank you Lord, I really do for her recovery did come and the smiles once again too.

Yet Lord this it seems was not to last as it was now my turn to come to task.

Come now the complications from my surgery in January of 2011 and the diagnosis of cancer did I greet.

Seven weeks of no work then only light of day on my return for three days I did see.

Oh Lord why was in my thoughts on day three when came upon me another emergency.

Now rushed to the hospital on March 11was I for emergency gall bladder surgery.

So here sit I now finally back in the safety of my dear sweet home and I ask…

LORD HOW LONG?

I think and I think in-between the pain and I wonder Lord of this travail and its gain.

Cancer treatments must I still endure, but when and where I’m now not sure.

I just want to see the sun again…I want to smile and laugh with Jan and the days of night and pain to come to a swift and healthy end.

How long oh Lord…how long I ask of you once again.

J. Allen Wilson © 3/15/2011