I thought of you tonight,
Something I've avoided
For quite a long time.
After fifty years
Of being alone,
Of not knowing
What it would be like
To share my thoughts,
My body,
My very life
With a man,
I had finally stopped dreaming
And accepted solitude
As my lot;
But tonight
For some reason,
There you were,
Faceless
And familiar,
And I felt an old pang
For what might have been.
Did you ever
Really exist?
Was there ever anyone
Meant just for me?
In my weakness
I can't help
But wonder,
If only for a moment,
Did you miss me
Too?