I am still able to feel,
I wish it wasn't for real.
I wish for feelings no more.
No one knocking at my door,
Asking me to feel.
I can not give anymore.
My feelings have been laid bare too many times,
And each time salt has been rubbed into the wound.
I can only feel more pain, mistrust or shame.
I am the only one to blame.
I am not the heartless bastard, sometimes I envy.
For feelings just are.
We do not ask for them,
I do not wish for them.
I wish they would let me be.
For just a while.
Feelings cannot be blotted out by drink, nor drugs, nor can they be replaced by new ones,
only just for a time.
They return with a vengence and ask.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?
My self? My self, has been lost in all the feelings.
Who am I any more? Shell comes to mind. Of my former self. Left with only feelings of another place in time.
(c) 2007
Walt
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Reviewed by twinklewrites at her desk (Reader)
Reviewed on August 31, 2007
Fabulous writing, yet so sad Walt, something we probably all do at different times in life. Enjoyed reading your work...Hugs and Love Peggy
I'm with Holly here, as I just noticed this write as well.
The agony of our feelings is sometimes too much, and as I can relate to this, it seems that sometimes the only way to get through loss is to blot it out for a time.
Of course we all have to deal with it eventually, but the brain needs respite too!
Here's hoping that each time you gaze at the sky, look for the southern cross and know you Kiwi/Ozzie pal is right there for you.
Hugs
Ch'erie
Reviewed by ~ Holly Harbridge (Reader)
Reviewed on August 22, 2007
I'm not sure how I missed this one but I'm glad I did get to read it today. You've poured out your heart in such a sincere way, I pray you will feel differently soon. Blessing Holly,
Leaves one with many questions to ponder over. All lessons we each must face and learn. Time does heal and soon you begin to pick up, gain strength until you feel yourself again. Never allow the past to drag you down, always look to the future and how you want it to be.....
Walt,
Heartfelt 'feelings' pour out in this awesome write. I pray for your healing, one day you will wake up and see the sun again. You will smile again.
As long as you can still feel.....I know there will come a day of healing...and the feeling will be quite different from what you feel today!!
Happy Birthday to you dearie...hope you will have a wonderful day...know that you are in my prayer...guess what...Zachary almost shared your birthday ...something to ponder!!!!
Despondent, one blows out the flame from the only candle, and afterward we ask ourselves why are we surrounded by darkness.
Then, the feelings will come, like invisible devils to stab us with their little needles, pain, we are not in the dark anymore.
Georg
Reviewed by Kathy Newkirk (Reader)
Reviewed on August 21, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BROTHER!!! I AM VERY HAPPY YOU ARE HERE AND I CAN ENJOY YOUR WRITINGS, THEY ARE QUITE WONDERFUL.
THIS LAST POEM IS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE SO CORRECT WITH THE LINE
"Feelings cannot be blotted out by drink, nor drugs, nor can they be replaced by new ones"
BUT WITHOUT THE FEELINGS, NONE OF US COULD ENJOY MUCH, LIKE FOR EXAMPLE, BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS WHAT YOU EXPRESS SO WELL. NOR COULD WE KNOW THE LOVE THAT SURROUNDS US.
I HOPE YOU CAN FOCUS ON HOW YOU CAN MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN, YOU ARE SO BLESSED WITH MANY THINGS.
LOVE YOU LOTS AND I HOPE YOUR BIRTHDAY IS A REALLY GREAT ONE, ENJOY WHAT AND WHO YOU ARE. YOU HAVE THE POWER TO DIRECT YOUR LIFE, EMBRACE ALL OF IT. OUR FEELINGS ARE ALWAYS WITH US AND WE ALONE MAKE THE CHOICE AS TO HOW WE REACT TO THEM.
Poor Sweet Baby! You are beautiful! You are wonderful! And so worthy to be loved! Reach out to yore friends, we will support, comfort, love you and help you through yore dark days! SC
You are really having a rough go of it,and I'm glad You're sharing it with us, as getting it out can help at least some! There is no way anyone can change what you feel Walt, for only you know what it is and only you can see it through...love and hugs as you endure...
Hang in there, Walt-walk away from the blaming of self and pick yourself up and move forward-that is the hardest part, after that, you just keep up that forward trek-peace to you, karen
Reviewed by Ron (sketchman) Axelson (Reader)
Reviewed on August 20, 2007
I don't think it would be all your fault Walt.
Stay safe and numb...J Kidding on the numb part
What a profound write...you've expressed your emotions and feelings well within the lines my friend, remember time does have a way of healing many of our wounds...
Blessings,
Joyce B.
I know this may sound "trite" but believe me, I do empathize with and know how you feel, Walt. Thank you for sharing your honest sentiments. Love, peace, and strength to you,
Sorry Walt but Fee is right on this one, Time is the healer, each day that goes by life is a little easier and the pain reduces. Great sharing write.
Newfie Hugs, Rose
A touching write that begs for an answer, and the answer is still even though you disagree at this stage of pain...time and another love to replace what was...
Hang in there and you will see that I am right...in time.
I have felt envy for them many times in my life, myself, my friend. And most of them sleep extremely well, too - not a care in the bloody world. But when I ponder it awhile, I begin to feel pity for them, and I'm then glad I can still feel.
Hang in Sweetie pie! Those feelings will subside!
I've been through too many times!
Find the positive, it's in your mind - what you want NOW!
and how you want it done! There is a someone SPECIAL, Loving
and Unique for EVERYONE, if that person is ready (that is and your life is ready for them too)
My heart is with you my Sweet loving friend!
GREAT heartfelt Poem!
I love the pict. WAlt!
Remember! STAY Positive Love!
Warmed in Inner Peace, LOVE, Light and Wisdom! (Patience too) Love and hugs, Warrior Lady Sheeeoox
STay HAPPY and SAFE!
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The agony of our feelings is sometimes too much, and as I can relate to this, it seems that sometimes the only way to get through loss is to blot it out for a time.
Of course we all have to deal with it eventually, but the brain needs respite too!
Here's hoping that each time you gaze at the sky, look for the southern cross and know you Kiwi/Ozzie pal is right there for you.
Hugs
Ch'erie
Be safe,
Karen
Heartfelt 'feelings' pour out in this awesome write. I pray for your healing, one day you will wake up and see the sun again. You will smile again.
Huggs an blessings,
~Linda
George
You felt yeasterday
feeling your way through life
Peace be with you
William
Happy Birthday to you dearie...hope you will have a wonderful day...know that you are in my prayer...guess what...Zachary almost shared your birthday ...something to ponder!!!!
Love Tinka
Then, the feelings will come, like invisible devils to stab us with their little needles, pain, we are not in the dark anymore.
Georg
THIS LAST POEM IS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE SO CORRECT WITH THE LINE
"Feelings cannot be blotted out by drink, nor drugs, nor can they be replaced by new ones"
BUT WITHOUT THE FEELINGS, NONE OF US COULD ENJOY MUCH, LIKE FOR EXAMPLE, BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS WHAT YOU EXPRESS SO WELL. NOR COULD WE KNOW THE LOVE THAT SURROUNDS US.
I HOPE YOU CAN FOCUS ON HOW YOU CAN MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN, YOU ARE SO BLESSED WITH MANY THINGS.
LOVE YOU LOTS AND I HOPE YOUR BIRTHDAY IS A REALLY GREAT ONE, ENJOY WHAT AND WHO YOU ARE. YOU HAVE THE POWER TO DIRECT YOUR LIFE, EMBRACE ALL OF IT. OUR FEELINGS ARE ALWAYS WITH US AND WE ALONE MAKE THE CHOICE AS TO HOW WE REACT TO THEM.
KATHY
ET
Stay safe and numb...J Kidding on the numb part
Blessings,
Joyce B.
Regis
Time will heal your pain. Wonderful Write and a great picture.
Ann
Newfie Hugs, Rose
Hang in there and you will see that I am right...in time.
Fee
I have felt envy for them many times in my life, myself, my friend. And most of them sleep extremely well, too - not a care in the bloody world. But when I ponder it awhile, I begin to feel pity for them, and I'm then glad I can still feel.
I've been through too many times!
Find the positive, it's in your mind - what you want NOW!
and how you want it done! There is a someone SPECIAL, Loving
and Unique for EVERYONE, if that person is ready (that is and your life is ready for them too)
My heart is with you my Sweet loving friend!
GREAT heartfelt Poem!
I love the pict. WAlt!
Remember! STAY Positive Love!
Warmed in Inner Peace, LOVE, Light and Wisdom! (Patience too) Love and hugs, Warrior Lady Sheeeoox
STay HAPPY and SAFE!
YOurDestinyisCallingSweetiePie!!!