Today I was reminded once again about the loss
The ache when one you love so much is gone away
Never to touch, to speak, to smile or look my way
Missing never ends, needing and wanting to see

Time has gone by, while the pain never subsides
One day at a time is how we manage, pretending...
That all is fine, that you are happier and at peace
While we know they are only words to release

Remembering the day you were taken from this place
leaving children and loved ones forlorn and in shock
So that satanic predator who stole your breath
Could hide and breathe waiting to pay the price

The day I forced myself to visit your grave alone
Saw the dirt pile high, as the clouds began to roll
Rain began to fall, and I felt myself drop to touch
the earth that covered you, as the pain screamed

You didn't have to be sacrificied! Oh damn that day!
How can I forgive him... who stole you that way
The sobs filled my chest and beat like the thunder
that was roaring overhead, lightening struck again

Mud on my face, mixed with salty tears, How....
can we live without you while that animal walks
and spreads his disease wherever he breathes...
Then the rain came down in torrents of new life

A Rainbow filled the sky that once was so dark
I heard His voice,  "She's warm and safe my child"
Pressing peace and calm throughout my soul
Trust and Love with kindness, try to understand....

I've never returned...the stone and dirt are tribute
to her memory, so I keep her tucked within my
soul, my heart, and lock her touch in that vault
that no one else can enter... She lives..She lives

I love you mother!