So, my band (Enchanted Devilish Girls) was about to go on tour with Tokio Hotel. We were so excited. We had performed a lot during DSDS but this was our first tour. Plus we knew we would learn a lot from the guys, Bill, Tom, Georg and Gustav, as they were old pros.
Our first concert was in Berlin and we were well received. We were all on a high after such a great gig, and went for a few drinks after meeting a few fans. BIll pulled me aside.
"So," he said, " we are officially a couple now."
"Yes," I said, " and it's great."
Our fans had accepted us as a couple, after Bill had shouted it out at the DSDS final. He was so cute and adorable and I was so lucky to have him.
We all decided to head back to the guys' tour bus for another drink.
Although Markesha and I had our own bus, I ended up in Bill's bed and she in Tom's.
I was lying beside Bill and he was stroking my arm.
"Bill, there is something I think I should tell you, but I'm scared."
"Don't be scared," he said, " you can tell me anything and you know I won't get mad."
"No," I said, "but you're gonna be upset."
He took my face in his hands and turned it towards him
"Please just tell me," he begged.
"Ok, I would rather tell you myself than have you find out by accident. Especially if you're gonna see me naked sometime."
At this, Bill blushed deep red and I giggled at him and this broke the ice.
"Ok," I said, "I kind of used to self harm by cutting when I was depressed. But I'm better now and haven't done it in over a year and I promise I never will again."
"Oh baby," he said as he pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around me, "I'm so sorry you felt so bad and I promise you will never feel that bad again as long as you have me, cos I won't let you. I love you too much."
"I love you too Bill," and he covered my mouth with his and kissed me passionately. I know now that we would be even closer and even stronger as a couple now. I didn't know what I'd ever done to deserve such a wonderful guy in my life, but I was never gonna let him go.
That night when we went back to our bus, I told Markesha what had happened and she was thrilled for me. Her and Tom were getting along great too, she said.
The next evening, the four of us went out for dinner before that night's gig. Bill and I were tucking in and giggling at the waitress's face as Markesha and Tom were feeding each other. Eventually, all four of us broke down in giggles.
"You two are crazy," Bill said.
"You're one to talk," replied Tom.
The twins started hitting each other and Markesha and I just rolled our eyes at each other. We were well used to them by now.
During that night's gig, Bill stood at the side of the stage in the wings, cheering us on. Every time I looked over at him he would mouth the words "I love you" I really did not deserve this guy. After the gig I told him this, and he assured me that I did deserve him. Then he whispered in my ear "tonight's the night..." If you know what I mean lol. And boy, was it ever!
