This poem is the very first poem I wrote, before I began to take writing very seriously. I got heavily involved with a very controlling church group . It was very easy for me to do because I came from an abusive family situation. I was certainly looking for love and acceptance in all the wrong places. I left the cult and began attending a very loving church. I joined the writer's group in that church and this poem was published in their church journal. Thus began my healing process. I have been totally delivered from the abuses I suffered from this cult. Many people who eventually left this cult no longer believes in God. I am very thankful, I was able to leave and still have faith . May God continue to bless them abundantly. Incidentally, my mother who subjected me to a lot of physical and verbal abuse later became a christian , she was instrumental in praying for me for many years. I have since forgiven her, but make no mistake about it one can't completely forget. My healing really began through my writing, first this poem then the one titled "Mother, Mother" Writing has proven to be my best form of therapy. It seems once the words are written a major transformation takes place.