Father

I am trying to be
what you need...
It is not fair
the way you disown me.
I guess I could never be
What you want..
I am just a genetic link..
An unwanted memory
left to haunt.
I am not perfect..
Though I try to be..
The same blood you have
Also runs through me..
All I have is my
unconditional love.
Something you may never
know the value of..
For even in the end
of this life
you are soon to leave.
You cannot give me
one small piece
of your heart ..
unselfishly.
Everything seems
to have a cost..
Pay for love
family
friendship
or all is lost.
I am your
disappointment ..
The unwanted one..
But I cannot change
What is done..
I never meant
to cause you pain.
I never wanted
to be your shame..
I think that is what
I am in your eyes.
I am sorry things
had to end this way.
But I cannot be your
disappointment another day.
Good bye my father....
May God give you
all you want.
May God give you
all I was not..
May I never be more
than a mist of a memory..
Of a small failure
You cannot quite see..
me.

ERICA