Wanted to type something tonight.
Just felt the need to tap the keys.
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Run, run, running
Need to keep running.
You.
Heart,
My heart is always racing.
Time.
Grab it quick!
Throttle it!
For the love of God
STOP. SLOW. IT. DOWN.
Oh hell,
Just keep running.
Can't waste any seconds
Damn, those invisible calculi have already elapsed.
Sigh.
Day by day.
Moment by moment.
Roll, roll you over.
Breathe, take a breath.
Yes, I'll move your foot.
Let me place your hand ... here?
This way?
Rub your cold feet.
Scratch your itchiness.
Cover you.
Warm you.
Love you.
Always loving
In everything.
Damn, your head is falling over.
Sorry.
What's with this harness?
Come, breathe, please.
I wish I could tell you
Of my fears.
Of my deep, deep sadness.
Of my losing you.
All the moments to share
Now left unlived.
We were our tomorrows.
Our future days together.
Ha.
People make plans
And God laughs us short a few decades.
Sigh.
Just keep breathing.
Day by day.
Please, stay
With me.
Copyright 2015 Sara Coslett
Regis
Even in tragedies like these, life goes on. Orion will carry the memories. We thought of a similar procedure 20 years ago and actually were able to make do with the good old-fashioned way with no result. However, a social worker advised against us having children because of the strain it would put on her trying to take care of the both of us. I often think of that unborn child, now near graduation from college… An opportunity missed.
Ron