I have to hate him because,
I still love him, and
I cannot ever go back there again, 
if I ever do, I will be done,
Gone to another world that no one
Should ever visit.

That was a world of lies, deception,
darkness, evil, and non-reality.
It was also a world of passion,
innocence lost,
a fierce passion for lust,
and a warped sense of love.


The sad truth is, that it was all
based on a lie on his part.
He was playing a game with my heart
And abuse with my mind.

I fell for his line,
that was what I needed at the time.
He was good, always there,
saying the right words, doing the right things,
to make me believe that he deeply loved me.

I now, know, that it was all a lie,
All a game, he thought he could win.
Well, the joke was on him!
I found my sanity back

my will to be free became stronger
than the need for him.
I thank my god for showing me,
The true meaning of the word "love".

I shall Hate Him, because I still love him.
It is the only way to complete my way to
that place and find "real love"
So , I shall hate him forever!