FUELED

 Lonely,

Feeling lost

Needing to be needed,

Alcohol,

And my drug-messed mind

Streets I roamed,

Feeling no part of the place I was

I feel a need to be part of

A part of the time

Needing bodies entwined

A part of a passion

A lust to give out

A lust to receive

Felt I had to be part of,

A necessity

The part of me that needed the intensity

My frustrating urge

My whoredom splurge

My perverted lust

Money for sex disgust

I now feel the shame

I take my blame

Myself distrust

My sickening,

Pumping through my veins

Denied the love from above,

To meddle in foolish deeds,

Sowed the seeds

How did I get lead away?

Walking my path

From what to where?

Why so much slippage?

Life turned upside down

Inside out.

Confused, jobless

Wandering

Looking for?

What for?

Some kind of security

Her and me

Isn’t that how it is supposed to be?

The woman and the man

Her and me

I cry,

I’m lost,

Not here, I seem

I’m away,

Distressed,

Lacking,

My spirit, my high,

Now goodbye,

Why?

So low

So slow

Where and who am I

Dragged down hurting heart

Sex on the brain

Before,

A time,

My love to give.