will i ever be more than a face
lost in a billion other specs from up high
can i ever be any else than a voice
echoing hardly almost nothing
just a cry...a shadow a broken figure
a little child in a disastrous sea
forbading forsaking ignoring the world
just to be...just to be holy
can i be holy will i ever be holy
enough to be.

will i ever be more than a heartache
a dying a stolen movie line
can i be anything other than another life
trying and failing and falling
crashing into a bottomless pit of
emotions hightened only cause it is
who i am and all i should be
a hollow substance of humanity
almost nothing but a grim machine
of respiration and unwellbeing
swimming across the same old space
just to be above where i can never be
holy only enough just to be.

can i ever get closer even close
enough to just feel the warmth the distance
why are you so far from where
i stand a little child afloat but drowning
if only i can be closer and higher and
away from here this world clouding
my eyes and my dreams that you
seem to be farther and farther each day
i try to be holy enough just to be
maybe thinking i'll be less than light years
away...when i'm holy.