Repressed…
This evening I didn’t want to get high,
Instead I did get depressed,
Worrying about all the problems,
The bills, the food or lack there of,
The rent, the expenses, etc and so forth…
I should have gotten high,
At least I would have gotten my depression repressed,
At least for the time being, I would not have herein digressed,
Maybe I didn’t use a word in the right manner,
But what the hell I am feeling a bit depressed,
Even with my meds, oh what the hell, I am going to get high…
Seems the only way out of this feeling for now,
Will deal with it again tomorrow & hope for an answer,
I really do wish, that a month or so ago I really did have that cancer,
Then I would have reason to be depressed,
Or maybe to go completely insane and start talking like a cat, meow…
© ed ~ 9/8/04
can't fire you for illness.I hope things take a better turn soon.
I'll keep you in prayer.
Allen