silent screams echo in my head
tears roll down unfelt and unseen
this smile belies my agitation
sweeps all feeling to the cracks and in between
laughter rings hollow amid lights too bright
eyes stinging from the day's vibrance
seeking only shades of grey
colors melting into solitary existance

spiteful desires eating me away
vengeful thoughts fighting free
needing to rend the Impressionistic canvas
finding the Blue Period one underneath
alone in a room full of jubilance
solo in a crowd of pairs
watching the masks slip in place
seeking single-moment affairs

mocking laughter screams in my head
wounds go unfelt and unseen
my eyes give truth to my pain
windows to a soul bruised and unclean
lay my head in my hands
fake the smile that so easily shines
ignore the dark thoughts taking reign
claiming the night's hilarity as mine