There’s a clock on the wall that seems to run in half time
A commercial old time piece with no fancy chime
Bland pastel colours on walls of beige and off white
Dimmed fluorescent lighting so there’s never any night
Employees in uniforms forever coming and going
With their rubber soled shoes and whispers so knowing
Buttons raise and lower my bed and a last minute help line
A John Gresham book in my hands just trying to kill time
I know every creak every noise, every voice in the dark
I know who can give needles that don’t bite like a shark
I’ve been washed and shaved and medicated for sure
That big clock strikes the hour it’s drawing neat four
The cries and the whimpers of those souls lost to pain
The bleeps and the blips of some mechanical main frame
Take a sip of my water now grown tepid and warm,
Lay aside my book and wait with dread for the morn
I hear the gurney approaching like a man on death row
My past flashed before me in images that flow
Bravely I smile though inside I just pray I’ll survive
As they roll me away that old clock clings to the five.
been there. done that. you brought the memories back in a flood with this terrifying write--well done!
(((HUGS))) and love, karla. :(
I've bee there. At nine years old a boy convinced me that anesthetic for surgery required they stop my heart and then start it again.
I had had many surgeries previous--I did not know how to begin to
say to anyone worth my trust that I was afraid THIS TIME. The gift
in it is that I have sicerely passed through my fear of death. Vicky
Take care,
Sherry
Hospitals used to bother me, but I've had so many surgeries that I know their routine as well as those that work there. I too, can tell you which ones I want poking and sticking and which ones I don't!
I think they take the batteries out of those clocks so they don't keep the proper time, that way one isn't as likely to wonder what's taking so long! I've now figured out how to not have to worry about any of it though...just don't go around them!
Lisa