Editting key phrases out of lyrics of the Cure, the words of Robert Smith take on new meaning to a mother of adoption loss.
I chose an eternity of this
Just a piece of new meat in a clean room
All shadows and deliverance
Like falling angels
The world disappeared
Your face
I'll never see you this way again
I captured it so perfectly
As if I knew you'd disappear away
Is it always like this?
Flesh and blood and the first breath
The first colours
The first kiss
Then everything falls apart
Broken inside me
Gasping for air
I'm gasping for air
I'm gasping for love
I'm gasping for air...
It falls apart
In the morning I cried
Leave me to die
You won't remember my voice
I walked away and grew old
Is it always like this?
Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
Breaking windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
She flies outside this cage
Singing girlmad words
I keep her dark thoughts deep inside
As black as stone
And mad as birds
In the dark
My fears
You scream
You're nothing
I don't need you any more
You're nothing
Is it always like this?
It fades and spins
Fades and spins...
A prayer for something better
A prayer
For something better
Please love me
Meet me…. mother...
And never turn away
all her love
everything
everywhere
Not nothing.
I feel you in my dreams
But the fear takes hold
Creeping up the stairs in the dark
And painting a lifeless face
You never talk
Pictures don’t talk.
It feels like a hundred years
One hundred years...
I’m dying for the hope is gone
From here we go nowhere again
I'm trapped in my fate and I'm changing
Too much
I can't climb out the way I fell in
A hundred years of blood
Crimson
The ribbon tightens round my throat
I open my mouth
These occasions are such a relief
Another point another view to send
To celebrate our difference
Theorise and talk yourself
Until you're tired and old
As you're choking
Choking
Choking on the fleshy words
My life is cold
My life is hard
My life is too much for words
Deaden my glassy mind
Disappear everywhere and watch me
Pull my lips apart
Exploit! Inspire! Encourage!
Be responsible for this...
You hit me again
You howl and hit me again
The same sharp pain
Wakes me in the dark
And cuts me from my throat to my pounding heart
My heart
My shaking heart
My head is cold
My hands are cold
My heart is cold
My heart is black
And stops every f***ing night
Every night
I wait until it stops...
I chose an eternity of this
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Reviews of "Edit the Cure"
Reviewed by Elizabeth Taylor (Reader)
Reviewed on October 11, 2006
"...Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone..."
I find this piece exquisite and pronunciative of 'myself', more clearly, my old self ... A lovely disturbing enigma!
You've choked my heart and soul with your writing, Claudia, a feat I love and appreciate! When an author can understand, with living, and actually feel anothers pain, when you reach heights you're sure no one's seen, but, others do, you must applaud yoursself, knowing you've reached an audience of One. How delightful! :) That is the goal of a Poet!
You've touched this heart of One.
Erin Elizabeth Kelly-Moen
Reviewed by J M (Reader)
Reviewed on October 9, 2006
You have done a wonderful job of editing this one up....
Very emotional piece...
"It falls apart
In the morning I cried
Leave me to die
You won't remember my voice "
Look forward to more of your work....
This is a book of free verse poetry that addresses the seven main tests in life and offers some sensible solutions to passing those tests with minimal discomfort.
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone..."
wonderful lines.......
You've choked my heart and soul with your writing, Claudia, a feat I love and appreciate! When an author can understand, with living, and actually feel anothers pain, when you reach heights you're sure no one's seen, but, others do, you must applaud yoursself, knowing you've reached an audience of One. How delightful! :) That is the goal of a Poet!
You've touched this heart of One.
Erin Elizabeth Kelly-Moen
Very emotional piece...
"It falls apart
In the morning I cried
Leave me to die
You won't remember my voice "
Look forward to more of your work....
Joselyn
I don't know The Cure, so I can't compare. I would chose life and light, and fight for it until I know it is time to turn out the lights.
Ron
Susan