- what happens if I do...-

Unwanted times
Unexpected betrayals
Gaps that can suck you in, yet…
I wouldn’t jump from one bridge to the other
If I
If I were you.

If you
If you were free
You would walk with no shame
You wouldn’t have to ape your hatred
For fear of being let down
Fear of the vertiginous fall
From the heights of your ego.

If I
As if I could see you
(and I probably can)
an uncomfortable witness
of your oh-so-twisted-mind-dismantled
ashamed, that’s what gives
the appearance
of made-up aplomb
while I long for terrestrial harmony
that I can let out
with no danger,
to benefit all.

But…
Locked up in my heart
I have to keep the treasure
If you
If the murderous you
Could enviously get hold of it
What would be left there, for you?

No ground to stand upon, none
Not even a stone
One that cries
When a man’s chest
Is as empty as a lie.

What good is it
If I
If I sing all of the nuances
Of times so unwanted
Betrayals unexpected
in an empty bed
where cold waves
chill my feet.

Defeated I won’t be
As I
I have learned to jump
From one bridge to another
My fears are only human
And that means I’m brave,
After all.