hatred confusion sadness dirty
these are some of the feelings
i felt when i was raped.

it was a long time ago. i was
stupid. i dated this guy and

he took me to six flags...we
went to his house afterward

because he needed to get
something he forgot. the

"something" he forgot was in the
bedroom...like an idiot i followed

him in there...he began kissing
me...things started happening &

i got scared and told him no...

he wouldn't take no for an
answer...

hatred confusion sadness dirty
these are some of the feelings
i felt when i was raped

a wife's duty is to love her man
& give sex when he wants it...

isn't it?? what if she's sick or
what if she doesn't feel like it?

does the husband have the right
to take it by force against her

will?? even though she said "no"
what part of "no" does he not

understand? she said no--that
should be the end of it. "no."

she doesn't want it.

end of discussion. she said, "no."


that happened to me too...more
than once...my ex husband raped

me...the worst time was after i'd
gotten out of the hospital after

having an emergency c-section &
recovering from an infection...the

doctor said, "no sex." my ex-
husband wanted it...he wore me

down...and i had to give in. here
i am...sixteen staples holding me

together...and the pain made me

cry. i felt ugly & wanted to die.

hatred confusion sadness dirty
these are some of the feelings
i felt when i was raped.
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i didn't file charges against them...i was afraid i had asked for it, because "back then" i was young and stupid (that's what i thought, anyway...now i know it wasn't my fault). this happened nearly twenty years ago...and i've lived with this all this time, keeping it inside. never again...i will not allow anyone to take advantage of me. "no" means "no." PERIOD.

i have prayed to God to help me forgive these two people that did this to me...the hatred has lessened (i don't hate them anymore, but i don't like them very much) but the feelings of confusion, sadness and sometimes "dirty" still linger...i pray He continues to give me the strength to overcome these feelings.