this is purely stemming from my bipolar.

I scream in the night not knowing why.
Angry at who i am yet scared to fight.
Wondering why i cannot just be who i am.
Fearful of what might happen if i switch.
Shall i cry tonight or just lay here awake?
Will this madness consume me or end?
Hatred for not understanding what i feel.
Confusion over what i feel i must do.
Crying out for an ounce of sanity within.
Fearing that it may never come to me.
Thoughts running wildly in my mind.
A storm i cannot harness nor withstand.